Showing posts with label haiku. Show all posts
Showing posts with label haiku. Show all posts

Tuesday, November 7, 2017

Trauma around the world

As I travel around, I'm popping into other people's lives and then out again.  For an intense week or month or long weekend, I'm immersed in figuring out the workings of a house I did not organize, with animals I did not train.  I do some wandering in the area, but am usually severely limited by the needs of the sit or the lack of transportation...or my own sloth.  No, that's not fair, I'm usually at work when I'm at "home," writing or tutoring or reading or knitting or caring for the house and pets.  All of these things are necessary.

Meanwhile the world continues to be at war (Middle East and Spain particularly), the Dotard-in-Chief continues to try to distract a gullible public and media from the heinous things going on in Washington DC, and natural disasters attack everywhere.  In decreasing order of devastation, Puerto Rico,  the Caribbean, Florida and Ireland are hit by hurricanes:  the former is still reeling.  In today's news, US Government agencies are still fighting over the contracts being awarded in the recovery effort.  At the same time, per one news source:
  • Nearly 50 days after Hurricane Maria made landfall, more than half of Puerto Rico is still powerless.
  • Officials warn it could be weeks or months before all power is restored.
  • Thousands have left the island for the U.S. mainland in the wake of the storm.
A few weeks earlier, as I was visiting my London cousins, I received an early morning text from a wide-awake friend in New Mexico (7 hours earlier):  Tell me you weren't in that Tube station!  I hastily wrote back, no, I'm home and drinking coffee, and then started checking the news.  Apparently, someone had left an IED in an outlying Tube station.  No injuries, just a snarled morning commute, and a lot of fear.  I tell my friend, you KNOW I would never be out and about at that hour, but of course, one wants to be reassured.  As in:  please tell me you weren't there.

Often, the first I hear about a tragedy is via social media, and that makes it personal.  JMR posted an "I'm safe" message in the wake of last week's NYC shooting, and added, I'm not in that area, but not everyone knows that, and I wrote back, you could have been passing through!  This week I was texting with friends about my day, and P suddenly texted, oh shit, another mass shooting.  This one was in a small town church in Texas.  So, both size and location of targets seem totally random.  How can we prevent these attacks?  London has a solution...maybe.

.A few days ago, as I left the Tate Modern for a late afternoon stroll down the Thames, I was struck by the number of yellow-jacketed London City police milling about under the Millennium Bridge and talking to people.  I paused, and one tall young blue-eyed cop handed me a flyer and engaged me in a long conversation, explaining that they were part of a community policing program called Servator that is "starting today and here to stay."  It's London's response to the various terrorist attacks.  They send out plain clothes police to suss out high risk areas like the Tate, which is iconic, next to an iconic bridge and an iconic historic site (the Globe Theatre), and filled to bursting with kids and tourists.  If the plain clothes cops deem it necessary, the more visible yellow coats appear, establishing a presence, chatting up civilians and asking them to tweet about Servator or report anything suspicious, and generally making it clear to potential terrorists that this is no place to be (also making it difficult for them to plan an attack.)  I was not reassured to find that I was in a Condition Yellow environment and that every person around me was a possible threat. Nor do I think this is a solution to our daily state of terror, especially since so many attacks seem personal and small.  But I don't know what the solution is.  Hopefully, things like Servator are there to appease the public (we're doing something, you can help), and there is something more robust in place or being planned.

The train system has a similar campaign with a more catchy slogan:  "See it, say it, sorted!"  But, sorting something is a little less scary:  it implies a lost kid, a passed-out bum, an abandoned bag.  It's potentially life-threatening for the kid and the bum, potentially a bomb in the bag, but most likely just a nuisance or a scare, easily handled by the proper authorities.

Then, there are the fires in California.  Just a few months ago, I was happily exploring the wine country and beaches near Santa Rosa, living in a beautiful home with a lush back yard and a park nearby.  Rudy the cutie and I took two daily walks around the middle-class neighborhood, replete with beautiful homes and gardens, kids with a water stand, and fellow dog-walkers.  I left happy, giving and receive a 5-star review on the Trusted Housesitters website,  and occasionally thinking fondly back to my Very First Housesit.  However.... Just a few weeks ago, I receive another text from my wide-awake NM friend, "Santa Rosa's on fire."  I check the news and the maps:  my 2-week home is right on the edge of a major burn.  I call J in nearby Petaluma:  they are fine, except for the smoke, but her sister and partner have been evacuated from their Santa Rosa home and are staying with her; no one knows about their home.  I write to J, my host and Rudy's mom:  are you okay?  No answer.  A few days later, I start looking up her Facebook friends and writing to those who seem most likely to have news and not be affected themselves.  Finally, two weeks later, I try again and get an immediate response:  the gent's wife is in communication, all is well with J.  Huge relief!  And I send off a message and post two haiku to FB.  It's all I can do at this distance.

I feel so helpless, and conversely so blessed.  I am miles away from the trauma, which means that I can do nothing to help, but also means that so far I am safe.  Fortunately, the people dear to me remain safe as well. But, for how long?

Small words, private and personal and social, are all I seem to have.  The larger stage and the actions are beyond me.  If it's true that "holding" people is an answer, then my arms must be spread wide to embrace a globe.  But it's too big for me.  I return to the small and personal;  it will have to be enough:

In tragedy's wake,
Why expect empathy from
A sociopath?

Is this what they mean
by tears of joy? So relieved
All are safe and well. #SantaRosafire

To J: I have been following the news and studying maps and worrying so much about you and Rudy.  Finally I started reaching out to your Facebook family.  My apologies for the stalking behavior, but I had to know you were okay.  SN came through this morning with the good news that you and your home made it through, and the bad news that your worksite and neighbors were damaged.  I will continue to hold you and yours in my thoughts during this difficult time.
fyi, right now I'm in Bath, England.  I love this place!  I spent September in the Dartmoor area and have since been wandering the countryside with a home base in London with my cousins.  This is my first cat-only sit, and it feels weird to not have a required walk in my near future.  But, of course, I'll be going out even without the dog imperative.
btw, my cousins are into the Great British Bake Off, so I've been watching it.  Sadly, our favorite, young Liam, had to leave this week.  :(
Note: (J was watching last season's final episode on my 1st night in her home.)
 

Saturday, July 1, 2017

Daily texts and notes, June 2017


June 1

I joined another wine club:  lovely gardens and wine. Not to mention lavender. (Matanzas Creek).  Rudy and I had a nice walk through Jack London State Park first, and he charmed everyone at the winery.
Jack London state Park,
Matanzas Creek winery,
And much puppy love
.A walk to Wolf House
And a wine and cheese pairing.
The dog liked the first.
June 2
Picked up E and spent the afternoon/evening with her.  Dinner at Rosso with Jan.  Amazing Bach concert.  EB was phenomenal in the Brandenburg 2, and the trumpet was unreal.

June 3
Today's message, not a text because I wanted to share these pix.  Loved the one of E grimacing. The food was out of this world:  house made yoghurt and sourdough, house-cured bacon, and imaginative versions of the classics.  EB treated, and took the pix, so you don't get to see her.
Took a long route home from dropping E back at her place in El Cerrito:  I hope to see her again before I leave the area.  She has literally no short term memory left, but she still remembers me, and it's so wonderful to see her.

 



June 4
Woke up at 3 am, slept to 11,.  Only outings were dog walk, but 'twas a good day.  Did an NYT crossword, listened to an audiobook, wrote a few things, drank some good wine.
While we walk I think,
Thoughts both airy and deep, yet
I dream of coffee

Tonight we're greeted
By two girls in bathing suits:
They're selling "fresh air."

June 5
I'm switching carriers and phone, so there will be some glitchiness until G brings my new phone on June 11.

June 6
A windy day at Dillon Beach.  According to my new friend T's Fitbit, we walked over 9000 steps!  Rudy rocks!
Outside Tomales bakery


June 7
Found a winery (Paradise Ridge) close by, along with a sculpture garden (Voigt).

Thu June 8
My last day here is grey and rainy, so I spent the morning cleaning.
I think Rudy knows something is up.

It rained last night and
Today it's dim and misty.
I avoid the snails.


Fri June 9
Today was glorious but very windy in this hilltop house.  I swam and sunned and read and napped.  My hostess informs me that Northern CA is not hot!  (Inland heat causes build up of fog at the coast).  I'm glad I brought sweater and warm socks.
Last month, heirloom seeds
Then a tart shrub with breakfast.
I'm sensing a trend.
Sat June 10
Her garden sculptures:
She says they're functional, but
I say they are art.

Waiting to see Wonder Woman in the most comfy theatre EVER!

Sun June 11
Got up early to pick up G at the airport.  He's sleepy. Wandered around the San Mateo area after picking G up at SFO;  surfers at Half Moon Bay, wine walkers in San Carlos (where we're staying.)  Missing the Pride parades.

Mon June 12
Posing at MOMA
Followed by deep dish pizza
With Golden State fans

  A piece of art or a piece of work?



He's petrified.  I'm not
Tue June 13
Spent the day at the Asian Art Museum. They housed the museum in an old library building.
Interactive installation at UN Plaza
Looking oh so noir
At Godfather's Burger Lounge:
He sports the smug hat.

Wed June 14
Long walk down the Embarcadero and a nice time on historic ships.
In a strange structure by the maritime museum

An homage to EB: altered oil slicks dripping down the Balclutha
But, the barking sea lions steal the show.

Thu June 15
2 days avoiding
Giants and Warriors fans:
Closeups of the art
At the Legion of Honour:
Best selfie ever
We're total tourists.
Ancient coffee beans
Decorate sacred objects.
They so had it right. (At the De Young)
View from the hill.
G liked this art. At the CA Legion of Honor, Urs Fischer
I covet these shoes:
So much walking and standing.
Art isn't easy.

At the CA Legion of Honor, mimicking Rodin
Fri June 16
He's so patient:  Breakfast at 8am (Cafe, not time)
The shapes and colours
Of a good hearty breakfast
At 8 am (cafe)

Clouds at Golden Gate.
He's likely wise to avoid
Today's sailboat trip.
He walked and saw whales,
But the captain let me steer!
We both were quite pleased.
Sat June 17
At the CA Academy of Science
Really great eco roof at CA AofS
G provides scale for a really huge piece of quartz

Just a few amazing
And true colours and textures
From Golden Gate Park
Sun  June 18
8-hour drive south, arrived at Newport Beach in time for Baroque concert.  Now crashing at my airbnb.  This one is not so nice:  musty smell in the room.

Mon June 19
EB skeet shooting at Mayur Restaurant, pre-concert.  A demonstration of life as an artistic director of an early music festival. 
 
 I love napkin folds.
The shirt fold is new to me.
Now I must learn it.

Spent the day reading The Jane Austen Project at the Newport Beach Library while waiting to move into a different airbnb. The mold in the other one kicked up allergies, and the dog growled at me when I went to the bathroom.

Before the concert, a pic for Esther


Tues June 20
In a garden listening to rehearsal.  Lovely.
Sherman Library and Gardens, in Corona del Mar
It's not Chihuly Nor yet SanFran Botanic,
But it's quite lovely.


Wed June 21
Zinc Cafe, at Corona del Mar.  A vegetarian Reuben, with beets and cabbage.  Excellent, but no Reuben substitute.
It's going to be rough
But one can get accustomed
To anything, right
 

Thu June 22
Just learned my voicemail did not apparently transfer over to CREDO.  Will fuss over that tomorrow.  Also discovered that tea does not prevent a caffeine headache.  Sigh.

Fri June 23
Lounging after a day of fighting with the computer; still recovering from yesterday's migraine.  Tonight I meet the ex.  Mom and son are fighting about packing.  He's 20, time to grow up.

Sat June 24
These SoCal dogs chase
Lizards up the tall tree trunks.
I've seen no squirrels.
Found another Little Free Library on the dog walk.  Wonder if I'll see any in England?!
Asthma has kicked in on the walks, no doubt due to inversions and low LA air quality.

Sun June 25
They're on their way!  And the natives are restless.  I'll have to take them on a walk once my coffee kicks in.
Still life with crossword

Mon June 26
 Other than skinny dipping and tutoring, I've done very little.  Too hot.  But this is an excellent home for lounging in the heat of the day.


Tues June 27
. 
When you wake early
And go swimming in the dark,
The pets are confused

Wed June 28
Each hour is a gift

This morning I hear
Warbles, flutes, twitters, and cheeps:
It's a bird riot.

Behind a huge frond
In the Bird of Paradise,
A bird's silhouette.

They lick my limp hand
And I doze, slowly baking.
The water's chillin'.


At the Rancho Santa Ana Butterflies and Brews
I've been here 1 week.
I leave for 2 hours, return,
And the dogs go nuts.
It's impossible
To share the immensity
Of these native trees
.Thu June 29

It's what they do, when they aren't fighting over my lap.
Don't know where this day went.  Surely I didn't spend the whole day sitting under a dog and coloring online?

Fri June 30
OMG, the DOG caught a baby bird!  The little feet were sticking out of his mouth and I couldn't get him to drop it so I pulled on the feet and only half came out.  So gross.  I had to swim several laps to recover and when I came out he was LICKING my legs.  I'm going to have to disinfect everything.